Friday, February 12, 2016

A New Normal

Blog Challenge Day #12
#Bloggingabroad

Written on 2/12/2016


My New Normal

“Miandry fa Gasy” We wait because we are Malagasy.

When I first heard this phrase, it was my second month at site (5th month total in Madagascar) and I was rolling my eyes at the phone store because I had been waiting for twenty minutes with my counterpart to get a new phone. My counterpart looked at me and said “I’m used to waiting. Miandry fa gasy.” I laughed and said I don’t think I will ever be used to waiting forever for something that usually only takes a few minutes.

I was wrong.

My patience today is similar to the patience I would assume Buddhist priests have. I could wait for hours for something that takes five minutes to produce. I count on waiting, I plan waiting into my day. Waiting has become a part of my everyday life.

This coming from an American who would get frustrated if my Starbucks coffee was taking longer than 5 minutes..oh..how times have changed.

I first noticed this change when I went home for the holidays. My family and I were at a hotel in Chicago and it was taking a while for our name to be called to check in. My dad was getting frustrated and said he was going to go up and talk to the woman at the counter, “Dad, it’s only been like fourty minutes!,” I said. He and my brother looked at me like I was crazy. I thought about it, laughed and thought to myself, “Miandry fa gasy”

This new found patience has made me much more comfortable here in Madagascar. Instead of impatiently tapping my foot in a line, I stir up a small conversation. Waiting happens, waiting is a part of life. But that time waiting doesn’t have to be wasted time. You can make a new friend, learn a new word, ponder life and all its complexities...

It’s just waiting. Miandry fa gasy.

”Blogging

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Training of Trainers (TOT)

Training of Trainers (TOT)
Written on 2/7/2016

This past week I experienced Training of Trainers for the first time. The next group of Trainees are coming in next week and I will be one of the people at their training.

Over the last 6 or so months, few other volunteers and I have been working with Peace Corps staff here in Mada to introduce a Peer Support Network to our Peace Corps community. The goal being that volunteers create a community of support and that all volunteers feel included and supported in this community. It is still in development processes, but is on its way to becoming a part of training and then tangible thing in Mada. Its been wonderful to work on this project and I was so excited to be a part of this training and see this network take its first baby steps to becoming a part of Peace Corps Madagascar.

It was a interesting experience as I was the only English Educator at the training, all of the other PCVs were either Community Health Advisers or Agriculture Advisers (the new words for our volunteer positions as "volunteer" doesn't accurately represent our work here in Mada). I learned later in the week that I was the first Education volunteer at a Health and Agriculture TOT. This meant I spent most of the week learning new agriculture techniques and discovering more of what the other sectors do - an enlightening experience. I am basically a SRI (a rice farming technique) expert now!
I also expanded my knowledge of coaching techniques from my time working with Housing and Residential Life at UMN and the Rothenburger Institute and worked on my facilitation skills. The best part, though, was getting to know the Host Country National (Malagasy) staff a little better. Some of the Agriculture and Health staff I had never met so it was great to get to know them and start a cross-sector dialogue.

My roll in the training of trainers was still a bit fuzzy, as we were creating the role of Peer Support and Inclusion in training while we were there. So basically I was creating my purpose and working on fulfilling that purpose at the same time. That left for some frustration, but it was great to be a little bit of a path maker for Peer Support PCVs to come!

It was a great week and I learned a lot! I am excited to meet the new Trainees in March and introduce the Peer Support and Inclusion idea to them. Hopefully, they'll feel connected and supported!


And I ended the week taking the GRE (Graduate Readiness Exam). I'll see how that went in about 6 weeks...but it felt like it went pretty well! 

Meeting the PC Director, Carrie.

Meeting Director Carrie
written on 1/29/2015
Since I've been back from the states, its been a bit of a whirlwind.
Mostly because I had the honor and privilege to meet with the Director of Peace Corps (International) and present to her an example of what Education Volunteers do in Madagascar.

When I was first asked...actually, looking back I was more or less told that I would be presenting to the Director...I was thrilled. What an amazing opportunity to meet the head of the organization I work for. My next feeling was nerves. I was presenting the biggest project I had done here in Madagascar - the Teacher Training I had worked on with my community in the fall - and I was one of 5 volunteers to meet her representing all of the Education volunteers in Madagascar. Also, I was a million miles away celebrating the holidays at home and was wondering if I'd have time to prepare.
But, prepare I did. That meaning I found a new romper on sale at Kohls and bought it to wear for my presentation. And that was about it.

The days before Director Carrie's arrival it was a madhouse in the Peace Corps Office, and a mad house in my brain, for that matter. So many preparations to be made! So much cleaning and polishing! The volunteer I was presenting with and I got together to plan our presentation. We picked out pictures and tried our best to intertwine our two teacher training experiences into one cohesive statement about how Teacher Trainings are a great way to make sustainable change for Education volunteers.

We pre-presented it to our Education head and other volunteers, tweaked some parts..and then..the day was here.

The presentation went well, I only accidentally spoke Malagasy instead of English a few times, AND THE DIRECTOR (or probably the Director's assistant) EVEN TWEETED ABOUT MY PRESENTATION! It was so wonderful to have the opportunity to meet her, but even greater to hear her talk about why she loves Peace Corps and her job and remind me that, I too, am great. It's always nice to hear that you're doing a good job at work and that you are doing what your organization wants...and its especially nice when the director of your organization says so...and she did!

The next day, however, I was terribly ill with some kind of day cold/flu situation and spent the night battling a fever. The next morning (great timing) the director was suppose to come visit the Peace Corps house..where I (and two other volunteers who had become ill) were basically lumps on the couches. I decided I would hide in the med unit and see the doctor during her visit. So, naturally she visited the med office and ran into my sad, sick self.

So, thank goodness my first impression was good because my second impression (although probably a more realistic representation of how I look everyday) was not the best.
She, none-the-less, was warm and cheery and wished us all to get better soon.

To sum up - I met the director of Peace Corps and it was beautiful and inspiring and I can continue on with the last 7 months of my service now.


OH, and FYI, I am feeling much better!

Christmas Vacation in USA!

Christmas Vacation and back again!

1/14/2016

Being back for Christmas vacation was well needed time with my family. It gave me the opportunity to breathe a sigh of relief that everyone was doing okay. To get the hugs I so needed, to see the smiling faces of the people I love. It was a wonderful Christmas present to be able to come home and see everyone, and I am so grateful my father brought me home.

So far, being back in Mada has been a little more difficult than I had anticipated. I was hoping to come back refreshed and ready for the next 8 months of my service, but instead - for the first few days - I had an overwhelming feeling of longing to be back with my family. Life here, although its simpler in some aspects, is much more challenging on a daily level. I struggle daily to express myself, and often have to hold in how I feel. No one here really knows - or talks about - the passing of my mother and some days its difficult to put a brave face on and continue my work.

Its been a year of bravery and pushing through and its been exhausting! And I know it will be a similar fight for the last months of my service. Its safe to say I had a little breakdown when I returned to site - wanting too badly to already be finished with my service so I can be in the comfort of my family again.

Fortunately, I can report that my attitude has been adjusted and I feel prepared for the next 8 months. I am sure some days I'll want to go home again, and some days I'll be perfectly content where I am. But I know that the time will travel more quickly if I'm busy living and working and happy here than if I am sitting alone in my house sadly counting the days until I am finished with my service.


Looking back at the past year I know I have done great things - and I know I can continue accomplish things with my community in the months to come. Time will fly, but time will only fly if I am enjoying my time. So thats what I must focus on doing. Living each day with a purpose and continuing happily on my service until its completion. 

Friday, December 18, 2015

I'll be home for Christmas

I'll Be Home For Christmas
Written on 12/19/2015
(2 DAYS LEFT!)
As anyone who has been following me on social media knows already knows the news - I am going home for Christmas. I've been counting down the days since my Dad bought the tickets six months ago in July. The day I am reunited with my family for the holidays is almost here and I couldn't be more excited to spend time with the people I love.
I want to be clear. I love Madagascar and I love my work here, but being away from my family in this difficult year has been the most challenging thing I've experienced in my life. It was heartbreaking not being there when there was bad news, and still, painful if the news was good and I couldn't be there to give a celebratory hug.
The honest truth is that at some point during Peace Corps service you realize that the world in the eyes of the people you love is changing - evolving - without you and it hurts a little when you feel like its impossible for you to be a part of these changes, and sometimes you don't realize things are changing until everything is completely different. 
It's easy to say you're okay, and that everything is going fine, and hearing that other people are is always comforting. Even from half the world away you know its not all rainbows and unicorns in the states...or here. But, knowing that I will be able to see my family thriving in their "fine-ness" has been keeping me going. Times are tough, but me, my family - we are tougher - and I can't wait to be " just fine" with them in a few short days.
I am so incredibly thankful. I'll be home for Christmas...and I won't even be dreaming.





The Orchid Thief by Susan Orlean

The Orchid Theif by Susan Orlean
Written 12/17/12015
I first heard about The Orchid Theif by Susan Orlean when I was taking a literary non-fiction class in college. We all were told to research a literally non-fiction writer - or maybe read a non-fiction book. I don't really remember. But, I do remember the young woman who had read the book say something like "It's really well written. Its funny - she talks about the weird obsessions of people and that gets obsessed in the concept of the story herself."
And I thought to myself, "...hmm...orchids are pretty. Weird people. Obsession. Sounds like my kind of book. "
And after having it in my sights to read for the last 2 years, I finally read it. And I was right. It is my kind of book. And she was also right, this book is less about orchids and thiefdom and more about the purpose of being completely and utterly obsessed with something - or more kindly put, "having a passion."
The Orchid Thief is about John Laroche's obsession with - you guessed it - orchids. Orlean first started following Laroche after she read a short article stating that Laroche and three Seminole Native Americans from Florida had been arrested for taking orchids and other plants from a park - which is against the law if you didn't know. BUT, because Native American's also have the right to take things from the forests. So, there's the pickle that intrigued Orlean.
So, she submerses herself in Laroche's flowery obsessions. She soaks in to the orchid, fern, swamp, tree, and flower world and the maniacs that surround it.
Turns out though, orchids are actually really interesting. They aren't just beautiful. They can actually be really ugly. But they have more to them then just their appearance. They are extremely adaptable and have flourished in their self-created little universes all over the world. Orchids are also "tougher than you expect", said Orlean, "they look as fragile as glass but aren't."
And lastly, they can be found in Madagascar...where all amazing things can be found...
ANYWAYS, Laroche and the people in the orchid collector crowd are absolutely "passionate" (cough cough...obsessed) about orchids and plants. They create rare hybrids and spend thousands of dollars on just one new plant. And in observing this wild obsession, and getting a little pulled into the fanatics - Orlean realizes something,
"The reason it matters to care passionately about something is that it whittles the world down to a more manageable size. It makes the world seem not huge and empty but full of possibility."
Isn't that the truth. So now I am on the search for something to be passionately obsessed with! Maybe its reading. Maybe its development work. But I think finding a passion and following it really is a beautiful part of growing up and becoming you you really are - at whatever age that is.
As John Laroche said, "Its not really about collecting the thing itself. Its about getting immersed in something, and learning about it, and having it become part of your life. Its a kind of direction."
Go whoever is reading this...go find your direction, your obsession, your passion!!



Sunday, December 6, 2015

Teacher Training - My First Project!

Teacher Training - My First Project
Written on 12/3/2015
As a Second-Year Peace Corps Volunteer, sometimes its hard to take time to reflect - which is true but also an excuse for the reason I haven't been blogging a lot lately..
Over the past few months, among other things, I have been planning a teaching training. I thought a teacher training would be a great way to create a sustainable change in my community and unite teachers in my district to improve their English teaching skills.
So...that's where it all started. And then came about a month of drafting up a grant, another month of it getting checked over, about a month of revising it...and finally...it was posted on the inter-webs. I was overjoyed by the response from my friends and family when, in just under a month, I received the funds and started planning my teacher training.
Then the real planning began. I started with the thing that would take the longest - getting t-shirts printed. I designed the shirts, brought the design up to the big city - and the teacher training was on its way to reality. The most alluring part of the shirts - in big letters on the back it said " I <3 Teaching English"
(Although T-Shirts aren't always accepted in a Grant proposal as a necessary thing, the sense of unity the teachers had after the training was wonderful - and the matching t-shirts only increased the sense of pride and unity for being an English teacher.)
Printing the t-shirts sounds like an easy task - but alas - it was not without its challenges. First, I can't get t-shirts printed in a big city, so I must go to the city 7 hours north to put in the order and pay the advance for the t-shirts. All was going well, until they asked me to pay the advance and I realized I didn't have the money with me. No problem, they said, you can stop by tomorrow. So the next morning I get up and go to the bank. Oddly enough, the bank doesn't allow me to withdraw any money from my Peace Corps account and is showing me that I don't have access to my account. 
Thankfully, Charlotte helped me conquer that hurdle and fronted me the money until the banks settled down and I could get money from my account to pay her back. 
And then I waited a few weeks for their call saying the shirts were finished. It was finally time to go up and get them, so I decided to just give them a call. As soon as the woman picked up and realized it was me she said, "We tried to call you, we didn't have enough blue fabric. We have to change the color of the shirt. They aren't done yet."
SOOOOOOO the shirts were changed from yellow to blue and promised to be done the week after on Friday. A week goes by, and I all again before I leave to go up north. "The shirts will be done. We promise."
LIES! I show up on Friday evening and they say, tomorrow morning! I was planning on making my way back to Mahanoro the following morning, so the shirts had to be done by 9 o'clock at the latest. "No problem," They said, "The shirts will be done! We just need to iron them."
The next morning I arrive at opening time. The woman smiles and says I should return at nine and pick up the shirts, they still have a few left to iron. Fine. So I go around town and get breakfast and take my time packing my things. I check out of my hotel room, take everything with me to go pick up the shirts....
When I arrive, the woman can barely look at me. "They aren't finished yet...." She says shyly.
I smile, and say, "Okay. I'll call my bus. Maybe they can wait. It won't take too much longer, right?"
"No. Thirty minutes. We just have to iron them."
......2 hours and a missed bus later my t-shirts were done.
So I took my things and my tshirts and went back to my hotel. I entered and the front desk people were confused..."Didn't you leave?"
"I didn't catch my bus."
"There isn't any more today?" Honest concern on their faces.
"Nope. That was the last one. Can I have my room back?"
*Smiles* "Yes, of course."
So basically, I ended up wearing a freshly printed t-shirt while washing the one pair of clothes I had brought with me in the sink and spent the day in my hotel room watching Ellen videos on Youtube. But...I got my t-shirts. And to be fair, the woman was extremely apologetic and very sorry that I had missed my bus. And I got a pizza for dinner. All was still well in the world. On to the step number two....
Which was drafting an invitation - which I couldn't have done without the help of a Malagasy counterpart, and sending them out to the different villages. This was a task all in its own.
I had asked my CISCO (like the Education Department of the District/County) for a list of all the English teachers in the district and where they taught so we could send out the invitations to the right people. Unfortunately, the list they gave was old, and many teachers that teach English were not on the list or there were teachers listed that no longer worked in the district.
So hurdle number one - what do we do with this ancient list? We decided we would invite all the English Teachers in the town of Mahanoro (public and private) and then one teacher from each school in the country side on the list.
The next problem? How do we send an invitation to a city 6 miles down the canal. Well, with a lot of trust and hope, we decided the invitations would travel by foot, bus, truck, and boat.
First, I headed to the Port for the canal and asked if the drivers would help me spread the invitations. I sat with the pile of invites in my hand, and with the drivers and driver's helpers around me, I called out the different names of the cities - and one by one the took a invitation with the name of the school on it.
Next, I went to the bus station and asked the nice woman I usually go to if I need to go somewhere who I should talk to for the different cities I had in hand. I was told only Driver Sammy goes to these towns on his big fruit truck, and he lives close to the dentist. So off I went to the dentist, asked a little girl where Driver Sam lived, and asked his wife (he was sleeping as he leaves at 3 AM to go to the countryside) if she thought he could deliver the invitations. She happily agreed and they invitations were on their way.
The next day, I traveled to the different schools around Mahanoro and asked their director if their school would like to participate in the training and how may English Teachers they had with my lovely counterpart, Madame Vola. (and got extremely sun burnt).
Then, that afternoon, Driver Sammy's helper came to my house to tell me that a few of the towns were not on the road he takes, and that I should go to the bus station tomorrow morning at 7 and there are a few small trucks that go out that way. So the next morning, off I went..and all but 3 invitations were sent out.
Mind you - all of these people helped me out free of charge, without question. I asked them for assistance and they happily obliged. Honestly, Malagasy people are so kind.
The next hurdle, EVERYONE wanted to come to the training. Teachers who were teaching a different subject but had taught English in the past. People who were hoping to teach English someday. All 5 English teachers from a school in the countryside even though only one invite was sent. I let them all come, and fortunately, on the day of the training, we had enough room to sit them all down.
The training was three days long, and included subjects like - student-centered learning, learning styles, introducing fun activities in class, blackboard management, increasing participation, and last but not least, lesson planning.
Everyday, we ate a wonderfully delicious lunch out on the beach. Originally, we were going to have it at a restaurant by the market, but then were afraid there space wouldn't be big enough. We searched for a solution, first asking the Church across the street if we could use one of their rooms - no they had a group of visiting Fathers coming.
And then my sitemate remembered she had been at a wedding that used wood shelters on the beach. So with the restaurant owner in tow, we headed out that way and asked the owner if we could use the shelter. She agreed - but asked that we find someone to clean up the space before we use it. Again, no questions, no fee, completely free of cost.
It was so lovely, and refreshingly cool. It was a nice place to stretch our legs after long sessions and take in some fresh ocean air before starting back at training again.
The last day of the training, all of the things we had learned were put to the test and we asked the teachers to meet in small groups and create a lesson plan. Seeing the teachers work together and create participatory, fun, and well thought out lesson plans was a wonderful way to end the training.
Lastly, we handed out curriculum guides for each school - which show examples of dialogues and exercises for each lesson in the curriculum -, certificates, and the amazing t-shirts. And me, my site mate Charlotte, and my wonderful PCV friend Gabby were given a surprise gift of a Betsimisaraka (the region I live in) style hat and a small hand-woven bag.
But no gifts were needed. It was great to see the teachers learn something, and more importantly come together to improve their teaching and therefore improve the chance at opportunities for their students. We handed out a survey at the beginning and end of the training to test improvement (the topics covered were mentioned and the teachers wrote how well the understood the topic - 1 being don't understand at all and 5 being understand completely. In the beginning of the training, the average level of understanding for the teachers for all topics was a 2 - somewhat understand. By the end - a 4 - understand well!
It took me a few days to relax before I really realized what I had accomplished. Here I am, a recent college graduate at age 22, with one year living in Madagascar, with never have written a Grant or organized an event of this proportion - organizing and conducting a teacher training for 50 teachers in my district. If that's not an accomplishment, than I don't know what is!
Obviously, I didn't do this on my own. I would've been extremely stressed and lost without the help of my sitemate, who is an amazing volunteer and has quite a few achievements under her belt. With out my wonderful counterparts - who helped me translate things to Malagasy that was understandable (writing Malagasy and speaking Malagasy are two completely different animals), without the community involvement, be it boat drivers or school administration, or the CISCO (although the list was out-dated it was still helpful in the end), and of course, without all the people at home who donated a little or a lot to help me make it all happen in the end.
Honestly, although planning, organizing, and leading the training had its ups and downs - and at some points I was so stressed I questioned if it was even worth doing - I am so happy for the results. Hopefully the teachers are excited for another year of teaching, and will be better teachers for their students. And in the end - that was my whole purpose of doing a teacher training to begin with.
AND to make things even greater - the teachers gathered in the end to create and English Teachers Association for the District of Mahanoro and they will meet each trimester to discuss difficulties and find solutions.
So I created a small amount of sustainable change in my community and for that I am extremely proud of myself!