Sunday, February 7, 2016

Christmas Vacation in USA!

Christmas Vacation and back again!

1/14/2016

Being back for Christmas vacation was well needed time with my family. It gave me the opportunity to breathe a sigh of relief that everyone was doing okay. To get the hugs I so needed, to see the smiling faces of the people I love. It was a wonderful Christmas present to be able to come home and see everyone, and I am so grateful my father brought me home.

So far, being back in Mada has been a little more difficult than I had anticipated. I was hoping to come back refreshed and ready for the next 8 months of my service, but instead - for the first few days - I had an overwhelming feeling of longing to be back with my family. Life here, although its simpler in some aspects, is much more challenging on a daily level. I struggle daily to express myself, and often have to hold in how I feel. No one here really knows - or talks about - the passing of my mother and some days its difficult to put a brave face on and continue my work.

Its been a year of bravery and pushing through and its been exhausting! And I know it will be a similar fight for the last months of my service. Its safe to say I had a little breakdown when I returned to site - wanting too badly to already be finished with my service so I can be in the comfort of my family again.

Fortunately, I can report that my attitude has been adjusted and I feel prepared for the next 8 months. I am sure some days I'll want to go home again, and some days I'll be perfectly content where I am. But I know that the time will travel more quickly if I'm busy living and working and happy here than if I am sitting alone in my house sadly counting the days until I am finished with my service.


Looking back at the past year I know I have done great things - and I know I can continue accomplish things with my community in the months to come. Time will fly, but time will only fly if I am enjoying my time. So thats what I must focus on doing. Living each day with a purpose and continuing happily on my service until its completion. 

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