Christmas Vacation and back again!
1/14/2016
Being back for Christmas vacation was well needed time with my family. It
gave me the opportunity to breathe a sigh of relief that everyone was doing
okay. To get the hugs I so needed, to see the smiling faces of the people I
love. It was a wonderful Christmas present to be able to come home and see
everyone, and I am so grateful my father brought me home.
So far, being back in Mada has been a little more difficult than I had
anticipated. I was hoping to come back refreshed and ready for the next 8
months of my service, but instead - for the first few days - I had an
overwhelming feeling of longing to be back with my family. Life here, although
its simpler in some aspects, is much more challenging on a daily level. I
struggle daily to express myself, and often have to hold in how I feel. No one
here really knows - or talks about - the passing of my mother and some days its
difficult to put a brave face on and continue my work.
Its been a year of bravery and pushing through and its been exhausting! And
I know it will be a similar fight for the last months of my service. Its safe
to say I had a little breakdown when I returned to site - wanting too badly to
already be finished with my service so I can be in the comfort of my family
again.
Fortunately, I can report that my attitude has been adjusted and I feel
prepared for the next 8 months. I am sure some days I'll want to go home again,
and some days I'll be perfectly content where I am. But I know that the time
will travel more quickly if I'm busy living and working and happy here than if
I am sitting alone in my house sadly counting the days until I am finished with
my service.
Looking back at the past year I know I have done great things - and I know
I can continue accomplish things with my community in the months to come. Time
will fly, but time will only fly if I am enjoying my time. So thats what I must
focus on doing. Living each day with a purpose and continuing happily on my
service until its completion.
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